Baba's love on me

It was in year 2009, when I was pulled by Sai Baba like a Thread is attached to a Sparrow’s feet. Broken in heart, I was in search of a real power called God who could give me a shoulder to cry on and a new hope of living back again. I give credit to my cousin bhabhi who acquainted me to Baba and it was then that I started visiting Sai temple. I am a believer of God since I was a kid but I never felt this strong feeling of presence of God around me which I felt when connected to Baba. Everyday miracles bought me close to Baba every single moment. He taught me to build my faith in him. He called me to Shirdi thrice in 2010 which made my life happier every day. I learnt to leave my worries on him and keep moving in life. A broken heart was now a mended heart full of Baba’s love. There are hundreds of experiences but short of words to describe Baba’s mercy on my life. An incident which I promised to share goes like this:

I was suffering with constant pain in chest from months, which I thought to be gastric pain and I was taking regular medicines for that. Pain was coming and going after every interval which was becoming a cause of concern for me. Once my doctor diagnosed it to be muscular pain and I was medicated for muscular pain. After taking medicines for a month, pain was still hitting me. On calling my doctor, he asked me to go for an X-ray of chest. It scared me that what could be the reason for this pain. Gaining strength I went for an X-ray which said that I had pleural thickening at bottom of my right lung. My doctor could not find out the reason for the thickening in lung and he advised me blood test and CT-Scan of chest. He said it could be an infection which might take months to cure or could be due to any other reason. The moment he said this, I was lost. Bad thoughts were occupying my mind for pleural thickening. I studied about its causes and cures on internet which made me more scared. I went for blood test the next day but was not able to prepare myself for CT-Scan and I spent 3 days in pain trying to gain strength to face it.

I prayed to Baba to help me come out of that scary phase. Then I went to Sai Dham with Ruma di and decided to go for CT-Scan only after Vineet bhaiya gave me healing. Many people have come to Sai Dham where Vineet bhaiya gave them remedies according to Baba’s 11 vachans and healing to cure disease of people. He is a blessed child of Baba and a medium through which Baba himself help people get rid of their problems. He gave me healing, Baba’s udi and golden jal from Shirdi and consoled me to have faith on Baba and that my reports shall be normal. His words gave me immense strength.

Next day, I went to a Lab where after entering I saw a Baba’s photo hanging on Lab’s wall. I thought that now you are here with me and my reports shall be all fine. I went to 1^st floor with my dad and on reaching 1^st floor, I heard Baba’s bhajan being played. My eyes were full of tears and I cried until the lady called me inside for CT-Scan. She consoled me and asked me to lie down on that machine which I found very scary and it made me nervous. I was carrying a Baba’s small photo in my pocket. When I laid down the lady asked me if I ever had tuberculosis to which I said a loud No. I kept Baba’s photo on my chest and closed my eyes and in few minutes CT-Scan was over. I came out of the lab and reports were supposed to be delivered in the evening. As the time was passing, I was losing strength and only remembered Baba the whole day. I kept praying to him for my normal reports and was becoming weak. Fear of any complication in the report was becoming worst and negative thoughts of a problem in my chest were killing me inside. I went to Rohini Sai Mandir alongwith Swati who too is a devotee of Baba and she spent her whole day with me giving me faith. I did not eat anything and was numb the whole day.

Clock showed 6 and I reached the lab to collect my reports. I took it in my hand and sat at the reception where Baba’s photo was hanging. I closed my eyes and again prayed to him while I still had tears in my eyes. I took the reports out of the cover and opened my eyes with a jerk and read “No Complications” in caps and bold in the report. I cried out of happiness, stared at Baba’s photo for few minutes and thanked him a thousand times for saving me.

It was only Baba who changed my reports of pleural thickening to normal. I was most happy and went to Baba’s temple again to thank him and prayed him to stay with me and by my side forever. I called up Vineet bhaiya and thanked him for his healing and giving me Baba’s udi and golden jal. Since then I don’t have any pain in my chest too.

It is true that Sai is our Saviour, our Strength and our Everything.

Anna Hazare’s Crusade

Yesterday while watching supporters of Hazare’s crusade against corruption outside Tihar Jail at 11 pm, candle light march, banners reading “Anna we are with you”, I was pleased to see the people converged to pillar a cause which, if succeeded, can change the portrait of the Indian economy to a large extent. Arresting Anna was an outrageous act done by the Government. But hearing Nation’s voice heeding his call to action was a blow up to Congress face. Slogans of “JAI HO” rejoiced my heart and I thought of Gandhi Ji. It appeared as if Gandhi Ji is back with his eternal and ceaseless spirit of making the Nation free from Corruption. His fight for demand of tough laws against corruption & fast onto death movement reminded me of Gandhi ji’s Quit India, Salt Satyagrah and Civil Disobedience movements where he did not surrendered but the Britishers laid down their arms in front of his non-violent but powerful weapon. Gandhi Ji’s spirit has entered Hazare. He is as ceaseless, as honest, as charming, as non-violent and virtuous as Mahatma Gandhi was.

Let us all come out in support of this veteran social activist for passing of “Jan Lok Pal” bill which if enacted would create an effective deterrence against corruption in India.

JAI HO…

Yun to

Yun to zindagi k har safar pe

Tera sath milta gaya

Na jane phir bhi kyun

Ye akelapan sa hai

Yun to zindagi k iss daur mein

Har mukaam milta gaya

Na jane phir bhi kyun

Kuch juda sa hai

Yun to takdeer ne baahen failaye

Swaagat mera har pal kiya

Naa jane phir bhi kyun

Ye dil tanha sa hai

Yun to jab bhi mud kar dekha

Tu wahin khada dikhta raha

Naa jane phir bhi kyun

Kuch dhundla sa hai

Kya hai wo jo akela hai sab mein?

Kya hai wo jo juda hai mujh mein?

Kya hai wo jo tanha hai dil mein?

Kya hai wo jo dhundla hai jag mein?

An Altruistic Giver

Have you ever given in life without expecting? Have you ever been a help to somebody you do not know? Have you ever been a reason of some onez gleeful smile? Have you every prayed for somebody you just met once? And have you ever been in words with somebody, who hurt you and are not yours, just because you loved him once? Sigh!

Giving, Helping, being generous gives a sense of bliss but giving without expecting, helping without regretting and being generous even to the ones who hurt you is like pure bliss. When one is a God’s child S/he don’t expect to be returned back with a favour. S/he guides with the best known answers irrespective of who have come to them. They forget the ignorance, fights, shouts and still stand beside for the sake of humanity and for the sake of the teachings they have learned from their Guru’s. They not only aid somebody for who he is externally but aid them for who they are internally. There resides God in every human being and when one is being benign and humane, S/he is being faithful to their Lord and Lord is the ultimate destination. He is the Goal, he is the Aim. He says be kind to others and I shall be kind to you. Be helpful to the needy and I shall be helpful to you. And if all this service is altruistic, none can outshine it.

Be a Giver without expectation and see the change of life for better.

Loving the Ugly

On a golden beach she was leaning

Ogling at the silver moon

The glistening light was casing her face

Embellishing the ugly scar so dark

She smiled a tad to enliven the mate

And shared with him a song to savor

She moved her lips n blinked her eyes

And shimmered the air, whilst quavered

The moon then danced in joy of her

The stars appeared to see his love

She moved her way to veil her skin

And closed her eyes amid the clump

He trembled as she softly grimed

Asked her cause of fogging skin

She wet her eyes n dipped a tear

And resists falling in love with him

She said she has a blemish black

And can’t be loved the way he does

She said they’ll have to part their ways

The Moon then whispered in her ears

All see their love in me at night

In me there is a blemish dark

I should be ugly in their sight

But Im hailed charming with a mark

WAITIN HERE FOR YOU

I’ve bin waiting here for you

To show how much I love you

Though you never get it on

Without you what I am goin through

You come and leave me all the time

Veiling the feel you have for me

I keep on holding down the line

But I don’t know how to make you mine

I long for the days I’ve been with you

Following the dreams we’ve shared through

Together we walked the streets in night

When you held my hand so tight

Though I still miss the time we spent

Seems your heart was on a rent

Now on that side my feelings lay

When you left and walked away

Born for a Purpose !!

At times I am startled at my own thoughts and feelings, which come at out of the ordinary hours. And similarly one thought occupied my mind yesterday while driving active back to my home. I was tired and next to exhausted with the screeching crowd and whistling vehicles on the road. Looking left and right and then straight was my activity when my mind asked me why am I born? It was an odd question at an odd hour. I ignored it and again after few seconds I was put to the same question, why am I born? And I thought of my Guru Sai. I whispered in my heart that God, I love you and adore you so much. You are more than my mother to me, always standing by my side, teaching me, testing me, loving me, and hugging me when I am crying. Why am I here on this earth so far from your world? Why am I not near you sitting in your lotus feet and watching your beautiful and pleasant face? Why am I not able to talk to you in person and listening to your command and see you smiling while consoling me? Why can’t I make you eat food prepared by my own self?

And a voice answered. “My child, I am always near you, watching you, smiling with you, accepting all your love filled offerings. I am listening to you and answering you through your inner voice. Your inner voice is always my choice. Close your eyes and you can see me on calling my name with love and devotion. You are a part of me and sent on earth for my purpose. You have to realize that purpose and accomplish it with my teachings. As you are My child, you will face struggles, obstacles, barriers, disappointments and harassments which will make you strong. Your deeds and honesty is your way to heaven, your patience and faith in me is your way to Me. On fulfilling that purpose, I shall pull you back to me from earth in my own world and you can stay with me, see me and rest in my lotus feet. Your thirst will then be drenched.

And I took a deep breath feeling that it is just a matter of 50-60 years that I am away from my destination, my God and on achieving the purpose I am made for, I will be back to my Lord. I feel I am on a “banvaas” of some years from my Sai Maa, which will end up one day.

I shall be honest and faithful to the tasks assigned, to my godly purpose and to my goal.

What Goes Wrong??

Being into a right relationship is like kingdom of heaven on earth and being into a wrong one is just like you have entered into the hell almost before your time. Even if you’ve done flock of righteous deeds, with one wrong you land up in a state of misery for no good reason. They can either make or fracture your life into pieces. First few raindrops are like violin played in calm, dark desert night and the more we get them it feels like beating of drums. So are the relationships of our 21^st century. Smooth at the beginning and Sore as the time progresses. Talks, which in the beginning takes your heart away, breaks it away at the later stage.

What makes a relationship go wrong? What is it that makes your most cherished, most loved and desired person just another guy/girl? Is it the less space given, immaturity, lack of understanding, trust, diminishing age, fading love or just because you are bored stiff of the same old character? Is it the constant need of changing partners? Is it that you realize later off that you have got a partner and not a Soul Mate? And your search for soul mate begins after every break-up and you end up with multiple partners.

Relationships are less of a bonding and more of a game, rather Blame-Game. Keep blaming, keep moving and keep searching. A search which never ends. I am still searching for answers.

Are we wrong? Is the other person wrong? Are the circumstances wrong? Is a relationship wrong? Or is it the destiny which is playing its wrong part? Or may be a Right part..

Search in On …