WAITIN HERE FOR YOU

I’ve bin waiting here for you

To show how much I love you

Though you never get it on

Without you what I am goin through

You come and leave me all the time

Veiling the feel you have for me

I keep on holding down the line

But I don’t know how to make you mine

I long for the days I’ve been with you

Following the dreams we’ve shared through

Together we walked the streets in night

When you held my hand so tight

Though I still miss the time we spent

Seems your heart was on a rent

Now on that side my feelings lay

When you left and walked away

Born for a Purpose !!

At times I am startled at my own thoughts and feelings, which come at out of the ordinary hours. And similarly one thought occupied my mind yesterday while driving active back to my home. I was tired and next to exhausted with the screeching crowd and whistling vehicles on the road. Looking left and right and then straight was my activity when my mind asked me why am I born? It was an odd question at an odd hour. I ignored it and again after few seconds I was put to the same question, why am I born? And I thought of my Guru Sai. I whispered in my heart that God, I love you and adore you so much. You are more than my mother to me, always standing by my side, teaching me, testing me, loving me, and hugging me when I am crying. Why am I here on this earth so far from your world? Why am I not near you sitting in your lotus feet and watching your beautiful and pleasant face? Why am I not able to talk to you in person and listening to your command and see you smiling while consoling me? Why can’t I make you eat food prepared by my own self?

And a voice answered. “My child, I am always near you, watching you, smiling with you, accepting all your love filled offerings. I am listening to you and answering you through your inner voice. Your inner voice is always my choice. Close your eyes and you can see me on calling my name with love and devotion. You are a part of me and sent on earth for my purpose. You have to realize that purpose and accomplish it with my teachings. As you are My child, you will face struggles, obstacles, barriers, disappointments and harassments which will make you strong. Your deeds and honesty is your way to heaven, your patience and faith in me is your way to Me. On fulfilling that purpose, I shall pull you back to me from earth in my own world and you can stay with me, see me and rest in my lotus feet. Your thirst will then be drenched.

And I took a deep breath feeling that it is just a matter of 50-60 years that I am away from my destination, my God and on achieving the purpose I am made for, I will be back to my Lord. I feel I am on a “banvaas” of some years from my Sai Maa, which will end up one day.

I shall be honest and faithful to the tasks assigned, to my godly purpose and to my goal.

What Goes Wrong??

Being into a right relationship is like kingdom of heaven on earth and being into a wrong one is just like you have entered into the hell almost before your time. Even if you’ve done flock of righteous deeds, with one wrong you land up in a state of misery for no good reason. They can either make or fracture your life into pieces. First few raindrops are like violin played in calm, dark desert night and the more we get them it feels like beating of drums. So are the relationships of our 21^st century. Smooth at the beginning and Sore as the time progresses. Talks, which in the beginning takes your heart away, breaks it away at the later stage.

What makes a relationship go wrong? What is it that makes your most cherished, most loved and desired person just another guy/girl? Is it the less space given, immaturity, lack of understanding, trust, diminishing age, fading love or just because you are bored stiff of the same old character? Is it the constant need of changing partners? Is it that you realize later off that you have got a partner and not a Soul Mate? And your search for soul mate begins after every break-up and you end up with multiple partners.

Relationships are less of a bonding and more of a game, rather Blame-Game. Keep blaming, keep moving and keep searching. A search which never ends. I am still searching for answers.

Are we wrong? Is the other person wrong? Are the circumstances wrong? Is a relationship wrong? Or is it the destiny which is playing its wrong part? Or may be a Right part..

Search in On …

SHIRDI NAGARIYA

Teri Shirdi ke gaon ka
Dekha hai sunder roop
Milti mamta ki chaaon
Chatt jaati dukho ki dhoop

Wo neem ka meetha patta
Deta mithaas bharpoor
Dhuni tere masjid ki
Karti har rog ko door

Jo aaye teri nagariya
Wo haath na khali jaaye
Tu hai har pal uske sang
Vishwaas rago mein jagaye

Jo bhakt hain tujhe pukare
Har raah tu unki saware
Na kar bande abhimaan
Yahi gyaan to har pal pukare

Mere ghar angnaa mein bhi
Sai Maa kabhi aa jana
Jo bhaag hai kab se soye
Apne darshan se jagaa jana

Love you Sai
Anisha

Black “EYE” or Black “I”

Do you believe that there exists an unseen force, a presence, a spirit or something that acts in an abnormal way to bring in bad luck and jinx to your life? Do you believe that there are strange harmful forces directed towards you to build a stumbling block in your destiny? Have there ever been worst kinda failures despite your blessed efforts to make it a hit? What is it that shockingly wakes you up at a dark mid-night? What can it be?

A hard luck? Character? Destiny? A jinx? Present deeds? Past deeds? Past life effects? A Black Magic or may be A Black Eye?

Does black magic really subsist? Does it really have a negative impact on ones life? Are these harmful vibrations building its home in and around us? In this world of God who is so chaste, immortal and vigorous, can a black eye have a place of its own? I don’t want to but I believe it creates an environment of its own. Again I ask myself, how can a black eye craft negative waves when we have the most powerful God with us?

And my mind reasons that though on one side we had Harry Potter and Dumbledore living for others good, we too had Voldemort breathing his joy of destructible magic. Voldemort had created a night-mare of his destroyed fondness but Potter’s spirit and Dumbledore’s espousal kept the pillar standing. In every life there will be birth of a Voldemort (black eye) loosing and existence of a Dumbledore (God’s power) winning.

Until we don’t have a negative spirit we don’t understand the true significance of the positive spirit.

Keep the positive God with you to fight over the negative Voldemort of your life.

NEVER LET YOU GO

I know that it is true
When they say that my world is you
I believe you are always behind
Whenever I turn in search of you

When I see you standing there
There is nothing that I could hear
You welcome me with a smile
That leaves me happy with a tear

In front of you then I sit
And wonder how much I love you
When you move to hold my hand
I know I am made for you

I hear to what you say
With all attention I could pay
And ask you not to worry
For sure we’ll find a way

I hold your hand in mine
And see your eyes that shine
You ask me please don’t go
Even in the hard of time

I close my eyes and swear
For you I’ll always care
I’ll never let you cry
Good time is back in here

I look up to the sky
And wrap a wish to fly
To thank almighty God
For he invited me to see
That he kept you in store for me

I am never ever tired of you
I can never get enough of you
With each and every breath I take
I am proud to say
That I Love You..

Sai Deedaar - A poem by me for my Sai Deva

Teri goad mein sar rakh kar
Sone ko tarasti hoon
Teri aankhon ki chamak mein
Ghul jane ko tarasti hoon

Tere charno mein baith
aasish pane ko tarasti hoon
Abb to bata Sai
kyun tujhse chahat itni karti hoon

Maloom hai har pal
Sath tu mere hota hai
Har ik karam par mere
Sai nazar tu rakhta hai

Raah sahi na ho to
Uss raah se tu kheench leta hai
Aur phir mere kadmo ko
Sahi raah tu dikhla deta hai

Jab girne lagun main kabhi
Mujhko tu utha leta hai
Mere sar par haath tu rakh kar
Phir pyar se sehla deta hai

Jab roti hain ye aankhen
Unme deep tu jala deta hai
Mere girte hue aansuon ko
Moti tu bana deta hai

Udaas ho kar jab dekhun teri aur
Ek vishwaas tu jaga deta hai
Dikhla kar apni leelaayen
Mujhe aur kareeb tu kar leta hai

Kehta hai tu mujhse
Teri chahat hogi puri
Bharle tu apni jholi mein
“Shraddha aur Saburi”

LOVE Anisha